haha..

So its funny how things work out.. and how some dont. and its all just awesome! recently ive been trying to plan things out that for the next few years with jobs and classes and everything and its been a bit of a struggle. ive applied for a few jobs that i thought i would get, and didnt get them. ive thought certain people would be closer in my life that arent. ive also had to turn away things that i never thought i would have to. and these things all could seem bad or like "bad luck" but i really dont think that is the case or i would not feel such incredible peace all the time.. I really feel so care free and its a great feeling. I haven't really had anything big happen recently so there has not been anything to blog about. What's great is that even when nothing big
is happening, the Lord is still just so present and His steadfast love is Amazing!!

talk about things falling into place.
as i was typing this, i just got a call asking me to be an RA!! :)

while im waiting..

do you ever feel like youre just wasting time right now while you're waiting for your life to start?
like in the phase of life im in right now theres so much in the future..like where ill be, what career, who ill marry, etc..and its so easy to be in a futuristic mindset and kinda just waste the time i have right now. But really, life right now is my life. like what i do or say and how i spend my time and how i grow is my purpose right now. what i do right now is important not only because the way it affects my future. it is important because of the people i influence everyday. it is important because i have so much time right now to just grow so much closer to the Lords heart and just hang out with Him with no distractions. I just wanted to take the time to think about how thankful I am for my life right now. I have a supporting family. I have some really awesome friends that feel like family. I have a great church and am spoiled with how amazing the worship is there! I am just blessed!!
my life is in the now..and the only thing im waiting for is even more of the Lords presence..

Just a Wednesday

I feel so free today.
I feel so blessed.
I feel the presence of the Lord all around me.
I feel so loved and treasured by the Father.
I feel honored to have the family group that i do.
I feel so much peace even though I have no reason to feel that way.
I feel new lyrics and melodies flowing through my mind.
I feel like someone new today. Someone who woke up in the Lords house and couldnt remember earth.

Love has changed me

I have been so blessed lately. When i look at my life now compared to what it was even six months ago, i am a completely different person. I have a different outlook on everything, new friends, and spend my time in all new ways. The biggest change I have noticed was my lack of fear. My whole life I let fear control everything. I was afraid of being alone, so I kept a boyfriend way longer than I should have. I was in unhealthy friendships too, just because I thought I had to be around someone or talking to someone ALL the time. Well that is way different now. I text sometimes but it would be okay to just put my phone up all together. I don’t hang out with people every night anymore. And honestly I love it! I have never had the freedom to just spend my time how I want to. Freedom to just be. I have given up TV pretty much all together. I occasionally watch a movie with friends, but not on my own anymore. I read now, which could have only come from the Lord, because reading is something I have struggled with my whole life. I listen to worship music all the time, not because I have to, but because I want to. It fills me with such great joy and keeps my thoughts on things above like they should be. I really am starting to feel a shift in the kingdoms I am living in. I have been so blessed this semester with great friends. I have been provided with friendships that are so encouraging. We can talk about the Lord all the time and not think anything of it and just enjoy His presence there with us.


A while ago the Lord told me that He would provide a guitar for me, and that when I played He would come. He has been so faithful with that. Two days after I heard that my uncle gave me a guitar just out of the blue! I couldn’t even believe it! I have been playing on a consistent basis now, and though I am not very good, His presence has been coming so faithfully and blessing me. I couldn’t be more thankful for all of this.

I have encountered the Love of God.

Therefore, I am changed.

September

So here are a few pictures that I have taken this month :)

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So recently I've been really learning in my heart some of the things the Lord has been showing me and the people around me for awhile now. The Father is so good. And the word good seems so simple compared to the definition of the word. One of the words we looked at as a meaning for was intrinsic (thanks to Raymond). Definition: belonging to something by it's very nature. The LORD is good because He is the definition of the word!

I also listened to a sermon recently called "the real Jesus" by Bill Johnson. He covers a lot of good things in this sermon but what stood out to me the most when he was talking about the difference between living here with hopes of having heaven here and living in the kingdom while we are here on earth.. Because we are seated in heavenly places we are the righteousness of Christ. We must have a kingdom of heaven mindset to live in that realm or have that kind of supernatural lifestyle. So how do we get this mindset? We have to know in our heart that Jesus died so that there will always be enough and that every disease was cured 2000 years ago. Faith is from the heart and not from the mind. Simply having knowledge of something is never sufficient in the kingdom.

I have also noticed that my mindset has been wrong about the way i view my everyday life..how can I sit here and decide that I need the LORD when He was the one who appointed me anyways (1 John 2:20)..It's not "our" walk anyways. We have the privilege of being asked to join His great plan. We are not the ones with the plan or the power so why would we try to apply GOD like a subject to our life.

It's exactly the opposite.

When we truly die in CHRIST, that person, desires and all, die and we become a new heavenly being.

Our thoughts become life.

Our interest becomes love.

We never worry because there is always enough and everything works together for our good. So the reason we don't have this life is because we have not truly let go of the old life. A part of our mind (which might as well be all of it) is still attached to this earth and the desires and thought processes of it (religious mindset).

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My recent reading: Compelled by Love by Heidi Baker

Im only a chapter in, and I have a whole new perspective on what it means to be poor in spirit. Now that I know what it is, my real issue is figuring out how to get there. how to get the heart to be more powerful than the mind.

I like that she uses a lot of Mother Teresa quotes. I had never thought much about her before but by the quotes used you can tell she lived a supernatural life being truly poor in spirit: not being able to survive without the Lord.

Heres one of the quotes I liked from Mother Teresa:

"Hungry for love, He looks at you.

Thirsty for kindness, He begs from you.

Naked for loyalty, He hopes in you.

Sick and imprisoned for friendship, He wants from you.

Homeless for shelter in your heart, He asks of you.

Will you be that one to Him?"

i'd pick a marriage over a wedding anyday

Kris Vallotton has been rocking my world recently. i would highly recommend listening to his sermons (free on itunes, and hes funny :)..

Something he just said on a sermon actually made me want to write this post. the sermon is called "apostleship". He said "we cant just sit around polishing our crowns. you can tell how close someone is to the throne by how they act towards injustice" and that makes so much sense. we sit around talking about how awesome Jesus is when we havent even truly tasted and seen His goodness. were just basing our "salvation" off the wedding instead of the marriage. the marriage is when we actually fight the good fight. we live out what it means to even be a christian. we love the Lord with our whole heart. we bask and worship in His presence. we love and forgive people (even the unlovable) with everything we can sacrifice, including our thoughts about them. we bring heaven to earth! we tend to the poor, we listen to those hurting, we heal the blind and the deaf, we go into the darkness. and we are filled with JOY all the time by being led by the Holy Spirit! this is what life is!

it doesnt make sense to be born, say the acceptance words of Christ, be baptized, live the rest of your life with those close to you, and then die.

wouldnt a Lord who put such amazing detail into the creation of this earth be able to come up with a more fulfilling plan for our life then just that?! He loves us! he doesnt want us to have a meaningless life!

Inheritence!

I read an article by Todd Bentley as well as reflected on some scripture recently and wanted to share some of what i got from it.

Who we are and what we have:

3 verses from romans 8 do a good job of explaining this.

"For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death" (v. 2).

"For you did not receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out, 'Abba, Father'" (v. 15).

"And if children, then heirs -- heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with Him, that we may also be glorified together" (v. 17).

So if we are adobted by the Father then we have an inheritance in Chirst. Bentley says "God wants His sons and daughters to walk victoriously, triumphantly, conquering and overcoming the enemy. His desire is to see His children walking in God consciousness -- possessing and manifesting the anointing like the apostles Peter, Paul, Moses, and the prophet Elisha"

Reasons why we should want this:

As a child we want our parents to provide for us. Who would be a better provider than the Heavenly Father? When we seek the Lord, nothing of the world seems to satisfy or even seem interesting anymore. it says in 2 Corinthians 2-"meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked" vs 9 says "so we make it our goal to please Him" because we all we long for is the glory of the Father.

-vs 14 says "for Christ's love compels us." What a small yet powerful verse to perfectly explain why we want to be lay down lovers for Christ and give up our lives so freely.

Inheritence


In order to explain our inheritence, it is best to look first at Jesus. who modeled the Holy Spirit's presence perfectly. He was able to model this because He is the Son of God. Matthew 14:36 says that the annointing on Him was so present that if people touched the "hem of His garment" they would be perfectly healed. (also in matthew 9:21-22).

The apostle Peter, once an adopted son of God, possessed and understood this same manifestation of the anointing of the Holy Spirit. In Acts 5, Peter carried such a great presence of the Holy Ghost that sick people were healed by his shadow. It was not literally his shadow but the same presence that overshadowed Mary (Jesus' mother) with the power of the Most High when she conceived

Bentley continues to talk about how amazing the presence of the Lord is. In 2 kings 13:21 it shows the lingering presence of God still lived in Elisha's bones after His death..

-Also..when Moses spent 40 days and 40 nights on Mt. Sinaii with the Father, He had to wear a veil over his face because it radiated so brightly that people were afraid. and that was only after seeing the "pixie dust" (as Mark Moore calls it) of where the Father had been. (Exodus 34:29-35)

so if all of these people in scriptures are human beings just like us, and they received their annointings by having intimate relationships with the Father, then we can obviously have this kind of tangible, intimate presence of the Lord's glory poured over our lives.
the presence can be so strong on our life that we could walk into a room and with out saying a word, the fullness of the Lord would lead people to conviction...its crazy stuff and its so awesome that we can have that by spending time in His presence.

Bentley concludes with this statement and i totally agree with it:
"Instead of looking at how defeated the world is, let's look at the potential there is for the world to become the kingdom of God. We need to understand that it's the knowledge of the glory of the Lord released through us as sons and daughters of God and the dispensers of His glory that will cause His kingdom to come on earth as it is in heaven."

"For the earth will be filled with the knowledge of the glory of the Lord, as the waters cover the sea." Habakkuk 2:14

im starving!! :)

so, the Lord has greatly increased my desire for Him. like the term hungry cant even describe how strong this feeling is. Im pretty sure that when i do feel the Lords presence and love like the way im desiring it, i will surely explode! So what is the next step? what happens when you feel like youre the only one around you really chasing after this? well i started reading "forgotten God" by Francis Chan yesterday. Im already half way through it which is suprising since i dont read very often. this book is so good! All i want is the Holy Ghost to come and totally ruin me. i have asked for this for a while now but not in full expectation and this book has made me realize that if im asking for the something the Lord has promised us then there is no way i wont get it! so im now humbly asking for this but in full expectation that my Father gives good gifts to His children. Also a while ago the Lord gave me a guitar and told me that when i play, He will come. So thats what i have been doing and He really is having grace over me and im getting break through with guitar. even though i only know one strum pattern that i play to every song and i know the same chords but just move the capo, it doesnt even matter. my Daddy still loves it!! Its amazing and i know that He has been delighting in me and just dancing over me when i play, like a father watching his child perform. If only i could just run into His arms and feel Him hold me really tight. thats what i truly desire. I know its coming because the Father is the creator of affection and i know He can show the greatest amounts of it.
well i guess thats all for now :)

Hungry (falling on my knees)

Capo 2 or 3

Verse 1:

G Em

Hungry, I come to You

D C

For I know You satisfy

G Em

I am empty, but I know

D C

Your love does not run dry.

D C

And so I wait for You,

D C

So I wait for You.

Chorus:

G Cmaj7

I'm falling on my knees,

G Cmaj7

Offering all of me.

G Cmaj7 G

Jesus, You're all this heart is living for.

Verse 2:

G Em

Broken, I run to You,

D C

For Your arms are open wide;

G Em

I am weary, but I know

D C

Your touch restores my life.

D C

And so I wait for You.

D C

So I wait for You,

D C

So I wait for You.

new to this. a trip to wonderland

So my first blog will be about what the Lord revealed to me recently through the new movie Alice in Wonderland.

• the theme throughout the movie was finding your identity and the authority you recieve when you learn who you are.


• in the beginning alice talks about her reoccuring dream to wonderland. i believe this is talking about your destiny. Alot of times the Lord reveals things by reoccuring signs, whether it be dreams, thoughts, or even seeing repetition of symbols.


• Towards the beginning of the movie alice also talks about being proper with her aunt. the word "proper" to me represented a religious mindset. The only reason it mattered was for the pleasing of other people.
• When alice falls into the rabbits whole she is entering a whole new world. she leaves everything behind, any mindsets, fears, possesions, etc. she goes in a childlike amazement into this place of wonder and doesnt look back


• The queen of hearts and her army. this can represent many things. the first time i watched it i just saw it as the dark side. but the second time i watched it the Lord revealed something new about it. so society today teaches us that love is a synonym for lust. The Lord has shown me otherwise: real love actually has nothing to do with feelings. its about sacrifice, honesty, and trust. But because Jesus is true love our definition of love has been attacked. red and hearts is a common symbol for love as well as hearts. all the people surrounding the queen are imposters (fake nose, belly, ears, etc.). this is also clearly seen by the way the king hit on alice in order to trick her. This is so deceiving and the world has made it so common that people don't even realize that they are not one in the same.


• one of the most prophetic parts of the movie is when alice goes into the house where the beast is kept. It had harmed her before so she entered in her house with fear. It wasnt until she conquered her fear that she saw the authority she had. as soon as her fear was gone the keys around the animals neck were handed to her (keys of the kingdom).


• The Lord created us to be in community with people. The whole purpose of friendship is to encourage each other and share in each others joy and pain. in ephesians 6 it talks about dressing yourself in armor. The only thing about the armor is that the back side of it is left uncovered. I believe that is where the encouragement from your friends comes in because it is meant to build you up.


• scripture says that the word of the Lord is the sword of the Spirit. The word is truth and is used as an offensive attack on the enemy. The truth needs to be kept sacred because it is so powerful. The way that alice defeats the jabberwocky in the end is by the sword. the first thing she cut off was his tongue. because that represents the enemy being able to speak lies into your life. it is knowing your authority and that you dont have to listen to that. Alice was told before the battle: "the sword does the fighting, you just have to hold on to it" He was slayed by faith and the perseverance of being able to hold onto truth.

"The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." 2 Corinthians 10:4-5

There is so much more in this movie to be revealed but i thought i would share just a little bit of what was shown to me through it :)